Tuesday, January 31, 2006
its the year of the dog, and honestly i don't care what animal it is as long as it's good for me (and everyone i love)
i've definitely made a couple (too many for my own good..) of mistakes and all i ask is to be wiser this new year.
it's so lame that i always have to attempt to start afresh on symbolic occasions,
like as if i cannot just decide to change and be a better person tomorrow just because tomorrow is just another day.
i'm weird like that though,
still can't exactly understand myself either.
chinese new year dinner with my aunt went pretty well,
it was a little awkward at first because he was kind of in the spotlight,
we were on the webcam with my family and my dad was asking about the dutch boy..
i was so embarrassed and so scared they'd say something they shouldnt say...i almost wanted to run and hide my head underneath the kitchen sink.
i can only imagine how horrified he must have been.
but it was all good fun though- the weather was perfection that day, walked around the suburbs and concluded that that is just not the place for us.
went bowling, which was hilarious to see because we all bowl so weird (i sucked so bad, didn't even make it past 50. bah.)
it was nice, i had fun, i was a little skeptical at first but it turned out fine.
i hope you don't read this. but if you do, these are all the things i've always wanted to tell you but never could find the guts or words to do so.
i can't believe you're leaving in exactly 3 weeks-
on one hand i want you to leave so i can finally move on and rid myself of all this lingering feelings,
but on the other hand i wish something miraculous happens and you get to stay for as long as possible..
actually i hope you never read this. i'm far too prideful to have you know how i really feel.
wai * 12:00 AM *